When I bump into people, they ask me 500 questions as if I’m on TMZ after a bad scandal. “Are you walking? Are you going to college? Are going to take the SAT? Are you still in school? Which treatment are you doing? Are you going back to a hospital? What pills do you take?”
Do some mean it out of care and concern? Of course. Are some people just flat out nosy? Yes!! Does it get to be way too many questions that they would never want to be asked themselves? YES! I don’t want this to make me unapproachable, but I don’t think people realize how emotionally draining it all is. Just try and treat people how you would want to be treated.
It’s baffling to me because certain people look at my family and me with this look as if it could never be them. Trust me, I’m not wishing it on you, but this could be you tomorrow because I was you 3 years ago. Did they forget?
If you have gotten the “look of PITY”, then you know what I’m talking about. People will ask questions without realizing that what they ask might not be appropriate. While at times, I just want to respond with a causal clapback, I realize that it’s better to just be the bigger person and stay gracious. Don’t ask questions you shouldn’t ask, plain and simple. They can make someone feel sad and depressed about the challenges in their lives.
There are always repercussions to whatever you put out into the world.
They are just people, who aren’t thinking about the million questions they’re asking because they don’t have to. However, that’s the opposite in my case. For me, it could affect my entire day, and they would never even know.
You don’t get it until you get it, and I wish more people did so I didn’t have to feel so uncomforted by the public. If you’re the one who’s gotten the look then you know what I am talking about. And if you are the one giving the look, well then, unfortunately, you know from this.
I’m just trying to get out of my house to eat dinner, or get a manicure, or my parents are just picking up food at the supermarket! Of course we appreciate everyone’s support, but if I haven’t heard from you in over a year, there’s no need for the inquisition. (If I don’t know you personally, I should probably add this in for some perspective, I live in a town where everyone knows EVERYTHING about everyone’s business. It is wayyyyy too SMALL!!)
I already feel like I am on a witness stand at every doctor’s appointment. I don’t need it from friends. I get how the Kardashians feel, obviously on a much lesser and non paid level. (I love them! NO judgement y’all. They are people too.)
Unfortunately, my life has made me bitter towards people in general who are able to do the things that I am not. Like walking for example, or driving, standing, and even writing at one point. These are all the things I should have been able to do that were “taken away from me” for years at a time. TO BE CLEAR: I do not want to be anybody but myself. I don’t wish PEOPLE any harm, and believe me, I am not taking anything away from anyone! Everyone should live life to the fullest; we do not know what tomorrow will bring.
I just want to say this: I appreciate everyone’s well wishes and sentiments. But, it WAS very hard for me to see everyone living their lives when mine was at a standstill for so long. I am doing better now, but I was not well for a long time, and I NOW have a very different perspective.